“We’re all a little weird. And life’s a little weird. And when we find someone who weirdness is compatible with our, we fall into a mutual weirdness and call it love” Author Unknown
I haven’t posted in a while, it’s been a long month. Since my last post, I had a fantastic birthday, broke up with my boyfriend, moved into my first apartment with no room mates, partied hard at my first bachelorette party, and started medical school. It’s definitely been, what I would call, a weird month.
But I consider weird to be a good thing. If you don’t do something weird every now and then, you are never pushing your limits. And if you don’t push your limits, then you’ll never know what you’re really capable of.
The first thing I want everyone who reads this to realize is, you have to own and love your weird. My weird is not the same as your weird, but I can totally appreciate your weirdness as long as you don’t judge me for mine. And I’m much less concerned with finding my “mutual weirdness partner” than I am with totally owning and loving my own weirdness.
In order to figure out my weirdness and develop an appreciation for it, I’m living and advocating this thing that I’m calling temporary insanity. You may think that this is a terrible idea, but give me a chance to explain it first.
My version of temporary insanity is taking on a challenge that most people would call crazy. For example, I’m in medical school which means in just under two years, I have to take this exam called Step 1 (it’s the first step in our licensing process) and the residency programs that I’m currently looking into have an average score of 230. So in my study programs, I set my goal score as 250. Because I’m going to shoot and work for such a high score, that even if I don’t reach my goal, I’ll still have done well. And being okay with not reaching my goal is definitely weird for me.
And my calendar currently looks like “study 24/7” but hanging out with me isn’t impossible. Just give me some notice and let me schedule my non-study time. This is probably the opposite of most people. But it’s what works for me right now. I even reward my productive study time with 10 minutes or so of anything that isn’t studying (usually cleaning, believe it or not).
And I give myself one night a week to do something that is seriously crazy: not study. What’s even crazier for me is that I don’t necessarily know what I’m going to do with that time. All I know, is that on Friday night, I’m not going to be reading a textbook or taking notes on my computer. I could end up at a movie or binge watching something on Netflix or going to bed at 8 pm. I don’t know. And anyone who knew me during my undergrad years, knows that my time is usually scheduled down to the hour.
My goals are crazy, they’ve always been crazy. I’m weird and I like being weird (being normal is totally boring by the way). I even schedule my spontaneity. But this all works for me because this is my weird.
Giving myself moments of temporary insanity, preserves my sanity in this crazy world.